Dancer..Dreamer..Mathana Subhas Balan

My Tattoo

2009-09-25T01:38:00.003+08:00

Heyy..

I just got my first tattoo.

The pain was excruciating. But then worth it.

250 bucks for it.

I did it at Exotic Tattoos at Far east plaza.

Worth it. I love it!!!

:)

BTT done

2009-09-19T00:52:00.002+08:00

Yeap

I passed my BTT

Going to enrol into school for my practical and FTT.

Going to get my tattoo. A year of thinking and considering many factors, i have finally made up my mind. It's going to be about something that is and will be really close to my heart. A form of paying my respects and showing my love.

I got to really work and save up money for this. Hopefully i get through this fast!!!

Geez

2009-09-15T23:19:00.002+08:00

Waa.

Holidays is just making me eat more and more n more.

Anyways, Dance Jodi auditions is over. Yeap. We didn't take part. I mean, what's the point if it's just going to be another damn TV voting competition. I bet myself and my partner will be out in no time. Who is going to spend another 1ooo bucks on voting sia???!!

Going for BTP today.

Hope I pass through it on Friday.

The feel of getting a tattoo is just not leaving me alone. Going to check out the shop where my friend did hers as well. I heard waxing is more painful! LOL!

Chaoz

Back

2009-09-14T00:59:00.005+08:00

Hello Hello.

I know I have MIAed for quite some time. Been really busy with Dance practices.. FYP and something extra. Lol. Been roped in for a new drama series; "Nijangal." Acting alongside Arvind and Devarajan. First time acting on screen. Shoots. I was really nervous. I still do have more episodes not done yet.

God bless me.

Anyway, updates on my latest performance. Vasantham Star 09. I have no idea which round that was. Apologies on that though.

Hoping for a real break to rest though.

OMG!
4 Days to BTT!!!!

2009-08-30T18:29:00.002+08:00

Hello Hello..

I m back from Malaysia..

Was a hell of an experience!!! LOL

The travelling from JB to KL nearly drained me. It was about 5 hours. Everytime i tried to sleep i kept jumping up and down! The road is SUPER BUMPY LA!!! Well, we kept eating and eating.

Reached KL at about 12 am plus plus on Saturday morning. Headed off to the nearest hotel and began arranging stuff for the auditions. Woah. Didn't sleep the whole night.

After the auditions, we headed off for lunch and SHOPPING!!

Wanted to take pictures at the twin towers.. But couldn't. :(

Went shopping at Times Square. Didn't buy anything much. The cashiers at SASA pissed me of great time. They were taking their own sweet time to serve me. I just left the packet of face sponges on the table and left the shop. At least the security guard was nice enough to apologize to me.

Bought a pair of slippers, shades and glasses and a belt.

Lastly, we went to the indoor theme park at Times Square. SUPER FUN!!!!!

I screamed my head off.

There was this grinder ride where it tips you upside down and leaves you hanging there for 2 seconds. I nearly died. Thanks to Jason, we took the ride 2 times. I was feeling super queasy after that. LOL.

After that, it was a sleepy ride home. I was falling everywhere due to the bumpy road. But, at the end of the day, i had so much of fun.

I made new friends, met new people, had a taste of the dance industry in Malaysia, ate good and bad food... etc etc etc.

Most of all i had fun with my team. :)

Now for photos!!

I dug out this photo from my old diary. Hahaha! A rare one i say!!

Went to Butter factory last Wednesday. Had FUN FUN FUN!!!

Chowzzzzzzzzz

Time

2009-08-26T02:12:00.003+08:00

Wells, at times things got to go.

Drifting apart???

Well, if things got to be the way it is, it has to.

Like what was said, perhaps loneliness makes a person happy.

If hearts do not match and do not have the heart to give in, what's the point?

If the main factor; acceptance for who the individual is, isn't present what is the point?

Like what was said again, being apart is the best solution.

But, in the end.. Can we be without each other?

Time will tell.

:)

Hols had started

2009-08-25T15:40:00.003+08:00

Hmm...

I have been getting a lot of nonsense from random people lately. I m getting very sick and tired of all this problems. I just want to deviate all my attention from this shit to something else more useful.

I got a life to take care of. Personal is just getting too public.

Well, my holidays have started. 5 weeks of SOLID holidays. Have a lot of places to go to. Haha! Just a day at home is driving me crazy!!!

Lucky, i got my FYP, dance and driving to keep me company. LOL.

Blog later..!!!!!

sick

2009-08-24T20:42:00.000+08:00

Can't believe you are just so SICK

Vadivelu comedy

2009-08-22T15:10:00.002+08:00

Never laughed in a long while???

Watch this video clip and i bet you will..

Deleted Vadivelu comedy scene from Villu..

The best part of the video was 1.48 to 1.53..!! I couldn't stop laughing!!!

WATCH WATCH!!!

Have you seen him ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At the railway tracks

2009-08-22T01:08:00.002+08:00

Heyy...

Yeap. You guessed. We made a trip down to the railway tracks. Just when i was so worried about the train coming anytime, IT CAME

Lol. I screamed.

When the train zoomed past, i could feel the amount of damage it had caused to the 2 students from my school. It was a nightmare coming true in front of my eyes. Woah.

Scary.

But i still couldn't resist taking pictures. Heheheh. A couple was having thier wedding photo shoot there as well..

CHOOOO Romantic..!!

O O!!! Did i mention that i m going to watch Kandasamy tomorrow?? Yeaa!!!!

:) :)

Upfront

2009-08-21T01:11:00.002+08:00

Well, I asked many of my friends whether should i go to the police to complain. I had mixed responses.

Well, i have to pay the price. I m dealing with barbarians. I didn't know popularity was this crude and unfair.

Calling me names such as slut, prostitute etc ain't going to change any part of me. I m still going to be myself and do my stuff. I m a girl and i have a reputation. I won't allow any bastards to cause me any problems.

You got a problem with me, do come up to me or drop me a message on facebook. Don't be a bloody dickless coward, hide behind the screen and write such degrading comments about a girl. I m brave enought to face you la.

Hmm. This world is indeed very cold. Finding nice people is just so hard. The person whom is supposed to be there ISNT!! hahah!

F it la! Why should i be dependent??

I will face this ON MY OWN.

I won't surrunggu and run away. You want to play dirty, let's play dirty. Let me tell you this. You message me. I don't know who the hell you are. But since i have offended you, let's settle it.

People

2009-08-20T23:42:00.002+08:00

Just a sentence out to my fellow blog reader who tagged me so kindly..

Go tell that to your mother.

Vizhigal

2009-08-19T19:17:00.001+08:00

Hey everyone.

Please do catch Vizhigal tomorrow on Vasantham @ 10pm.

Chakraz together with other dance groups will be giving our opinions about the Indian dance industry in Singapore.

Please do tune in..!!!

RIver Tandoor

2009-08-17T20:30:00.007+08:00

Hello..

It was kinda of hard to get back to my normal life.. No more dance practices. No more coming back home at 12am. Lol.. Interesting. Hope i don't get too lazy and put back those fats i lost. LOL

Well. Just to contradict what i just said, a post about my trip to River Walk Tandoor @ Clarke Quay for a buffet dinner. LOL

I heard our president loves to frequent this restaurant.. Really mehh?

The naan was the BEST!!!

Long Island Tea

Burp!!! Heeee!!!!

:D

Danz Arena Champions

2009-08-13T19:04:00.003+08:00

Chakraz

Champions of Danz Arena Y2K9

Yes, we have indeed proved ourselves. The burning fire to win just after a major blow at Dhool 2oo8, this is indeed a sweet victory.

Months of hardwork, bloodshed and tears have paid off.

Judging from the comments in the dance-2-this blog and in youtube, there are many people whom are unhappy about the judgment. It is ok to be unhappy and then pass comments. But, please do be abit sensitive about other's feelings.

Other than that, my heartfelt thanks to everyone whom supported us, friends and family members.

Thanks!!

ps: For more pictures, please do check out my facebook. Too many to upload(Lazy). LOL.

1 More day to Danz Arena

2009-08-07T14:05:00.003+08:00

Alright.

5 months of hardwork.

Dancing non-stop.

O well, my dancing is definitely going to take a pause after Aug 8th.

I have to indeed pat myself on my back. Hahaha..

Piles of school work being my final year in school, projects, family problems, relationship problems have indeed drove my crazy over this period of time. But, i didnt lose hope and have continued dancing and rehearsing hard for tomorrow's competition.

Danz Arena does mean a lot to me and my group. All of us have put in immense time and effort into this piece. Going home at 12am everyday wasn't an easy thing. Waking up to school is also another hurdle to pass every single day.

But, i have pulled through it.

Whatever the result is tomorrow, all I know is that I have put my heart and soul into my performance and I will be doing my best.

All the best to all the other teams.

Lets give a super "dandanakka" show tomorrow at Danz Arena Folk Competition 2009!!!

G302

2009-08-04T10:38:00.004+08:00

Hello Hello..

I m so going to buy that rose flower hairband from Bugis tomorrow.

Make sure i look 13 again. :P

I know. Too much.

Brr. Feeling damn tired. Danz Arena is just 3 days away. Hahaha.

O! My FYP team had gotten the Tattoo topic.

CHIONGING TIME AGAIN!!

Promoting RP.

I really love this pose.. Myna & Kuruvi. HAHAHHA.. VATT A COMBINATION.

Chaoz!!

Red Day

2009-07-30T10:24:00.003+08:00

Hello.

Ok.
I tried.

:P

Well, I m over and done with my first FYP. Second one coming up real soon... So... Just chilling for now.. Hahahah!!

Well, i can't wait to go for a good head massage. You know the ones where they pour oil onto your head and massage...... AWWWWWWWWWWWWW........

School is boring as ever. Looking forward to holidays.

Blog later..

FYP presentation

2009-07-28T12:03:00.003+08:00

Heyy blog..

Tomorrow's my FYP presentation.

For the first time in my 3 years in RP, i m going to be super dressed up!! Hahaha! I can't believe that i shopped and spent about 6o bucks on my clothes just for tomorrow. Lol.

Anyway, this is just the passing of the first hurdle. I have a second FYP next semester. -_-

Wish me luck for tomorrow's presentation!!

My article..

I made my selection for my modules next semester. Hopefully I get Production Design. :S

Before i end off this post.. A new favorite song of mine..

Oru Devadhai - Yuvan Shankar Raja

So beautiful........ hahahah..

Chaoz!!

pics at heritage

2009-07-23T10:40:00.004+08:00

Hello..

Well, time to update pictures yawhhh..

Taken at Causeway Point on 19th July..

:D

Heritage Fest

2009-07-21T10:08:00.003+08:00

Hey Hey Hey!!

I have the videos taken of Sangeshtraz performing during the Heritage Fest 09

But I havent got the full video of the wedding themed performance at Jurong Point. Will upload ASAP yawhhh...

Enjoy!!

18th July @ Jurong Point

Vaada Mappiley

19th July @ Causeway Point

Opening Item- Peacock & Contemporary dance

Tamil Endra

Suttudae Suttudae

Choaz!

bride bride

2009-07-16T11:43:00.005+08:00

Hey hey hey!

Hahaha.. i m going to get a feel of being a bride.

:P

In conjunction with Heritage Fest on Saturday, at Jurong Point we are putting up 4 performances within the theme of marriage.

It will be a drama and dance medley.

LOL. It is super fun to act and dance at the same time!!

The best part is my bridegroom. -_-

I m so going to laugh my head off!!!

Be sure to catch it yea!!

Anyway.. A very interesting post i found online..

David Bissonette
When a man steals your wife, there is no better revenge than to let him keep her.

Sacha Guitry
After marriage, husband and wife become two sides of a coin; they just can't face each other, but still they stay together.

Socrates
By all means marry. If you get a good wife, you'll be happy. If you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher.

Anonymous
Woman inspires us to great things, and prevents us from achieving them.

Dumas
The great question... which I have not been able to answer... is, 'What does a woman want?

Sigmund Freud
I had some words with my wife, and she had some paragraphs with me.

Anonymous
'Some people ask the secret of our long marriage. We take time to go to a restaurant two times a week. A little candlelight, dinner, soft music and dancing. She goes Tuesdays, I go Fridays.'

Sam Kinison
'There's a way of transferring funds that is even faster than electronic banking. It's called marriage.'

James Holt McGavran
'I've had bad luck with both my wives. The first one left me, and the second one didn't.'

Patrick Murray
Two secrets to keep your marriage brimming 1. Whenever you're wrong, admit it, 2. Whenever you're right, shut up.

Nash
The most effective way to remember your wife's birthday is to forget it once...

Anonymous
You know what I did before I married? Anything I wanted to.

Henny Youngman
My wife and I were happy for twenty years. Then we met.

Rodney Dangerfield
A good wife always forgives her husband when she's wrong.

Anonymous
A man inserted an 'AD in the classifieds: 'Wife wanted'. Next day he received a hundred letters. They all said the same thing: 'You can have mine.'

Anonymous
First Guy (proudly): 'My wife's an angel!' Second Guy: 'You're lucky, mine's still alive.'

True ehhh... Hahahah..

Ego

2009-07-15T01:43:00.004+08:00

I would like to share this quote with my readers..

'Argument wins the situations but loses the person. So when you argue with your loved ones, remember that situations is never more important than your loved ones.....

True.. True..

Anyway, back to ME!

I ate 2 Mcdonalds BUTTERSCOTCH ice-cream today!! WEEEE!! It is my new "HAPPY FOOD" in Firah's language actually.. LOL

Gayathri bought me set of SASA makeup brushes as a my belated bday gift! That girl arrr.. Waste money.

Ok..A dumb note i found in Facebook. I decided to post it here.. Heeee

Truths

Can you fill this out without lying?
I shall try my best.

What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
FOOD!!

Have you ever kissed anyone named Matthew?
No la!

Where was your default picture taken?
HOME

Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20.?
Just today.. But driver Najip was 20..

Can you play guitar hero?
Toy one can la..

Name someone that made you laugh today?
Shanker & Najip..

How late did you stay up last night and why?
4 plus.. Doing work..

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
Pasir ris..

Ever been kissed under fireworks?
No.. LOL

Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Mathuuuu

Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Depends.

Calling or texting?
Calling acually.. But if no prepaid.. Text lorrr..

When was the last time you cried really hard?
Yesterday.

Where are you right now?
Home.. It's 2 plus

What bed did you sleep in last night?
My bed??

What was the last thing someone bought for you?
Makeup brushes..

Who took your profile picture?
ME!!

Who was the last person you took a picture of?
I took a picture of myself.. LOL

Was yesterday better than today?
No.

Can you live a day without TV?
Yes..

Are you mad about anything?
No. I m mad at situations. Situations that made me lose close ppl..

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
It depends..

When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
For the past week.

Night out or night in?
Night out.. OF COZ

What items could you not go without during the day?
My wallet & hp..

Would you share a drink with a stranger?
No.

Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
My mum..

What does the last message in your inbox say?
"Goodnite sweetheart. Love you..Hope you like e gift.. Muuakzz

How do you feel now about your life?
Still a long way to go..

Do you hate anyone?
No. I dun.

If we were to look in your inbox, what would we find?
Loads of forwarded mails..

Can you easily tell if someones fake?
Definitely..

Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?
Of course..

Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
No.

What song is stuck in your head?
Beat it & Ennavaley by Dilip Varman..

Someone knocks on your window at 2am, who do you want it to be?
NOONE!!! I will be scared to death!

Wanna have kids before you’re 30?
Let's see...

Name something you have to do tomorrow?
FYP report..

Can you whistle?
Abit abit..

Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
I love sleeping on my side..

Do you think too much or too little?
A LOT!!!

Do you smile a lot?
Yes yes!!!!

Who was your last missed call on your Mobile phone?
Boy annae..

Whens the next time you will see the person you like?
I see ppl i like everyday...

Are you happy with your life?
Well, this is life. Accept it or not..

Can you handle the truth?
It is hard. But, no choice..

What was the last book you read?
PS. I love you

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
Shanker & Najip?? No la!!! They are super funny!!

Is there something you always wear?
Rshini's anklet..

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Eating my breakfast, lunch and dinner... at 2am..

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
Gayathri..

Did you have an exciting time last weekend?
Nope..

Have you ever crawled through a window?
No. Fence have..

Are you wearing a necklace?
No

Are you an emotional person?
Yes. I can't avoid the fact that I m still a girl. No matter how hard i m outside.

What's something that can always make you feel better?
Making someone happy..

Will this weekend be a good one?
Yes. It will be very hectic. 8 performances..

What do you want right now?
SLEEP. A GOOD NIGHT SLEEP.

Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yea..

Look behind you, what do you see?
Dun scare me..... I m all alone at home.. It's 2.19am

Have you ever worked in a food place?
Food call centre yes..

What would you name your future daughter?
I always liked the name Maya..

Any summer plans for 2009?
Summer plans.. No plans..

Whats on your schedule for tomorrow?
FYP at school and dance..

Does anyone know your facebook password?
noone. :)

Anyway, just to remind you guys..

HERTITAGE FEST
18th July--> Jurong Point @ 2.30pm
19th July--> Causeway Point @ 3pm

Come on down and have great fun yea! There are loads more activities happening.. So do make yourselves free and give your support to us Yindians yea!! Hahaha!

Shoots.. FYP is killing us. Bit by Bit. Heading down to school on a Wednesday is a KILLER. LOL. 8 more months to graduation.

PULL THROUGH MADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heritage Fest

2009-07-14T11:30:00.004+08:00

Hey..

Skipped school today because of my throat infection.

Doc told me to stay away from my mum and wear a surgical mask at home.

-_-

Anyway...........

Listen up people!!! I m sure you might have seen this poster.. At mrt stations, bus stops, train cabins and so on..

Sangeshtraz will be performing for this event; Singapore Heritage Fest.

Catch us at:
Jurong Point on 18th July
Causeway Point on the 19th July

I will update the timings tomorrow.

It is indeed a huge event and of course it will be very entertaining and fun to watch. We will be dancing to upbeat numbers and of course a touch of classical.

The highlight of our performance will be on Sunday as we will be doing a wedding theme. Thus, it will be something like a drama and dance medley. Be sure to catch us!!

Come on down with your family and friends to enjoy this show!!

Of course... IT IS FREE!!

See you guys there!!

:)

helllooo

2009-07-13T15:18:00.002+08:00

I think I m having tonsils.

Shoots.

My throat is swelling at the sides. I can neither swallow saliva nor eat food.

:(

Anyway, I m planning to go clubbing. I need to relax and let loose. Next Saturday. Muahahaha..

This time, ZIRCA.

:P

Me

2009-07-12T23:20:00.005+08:00

LOL!'

I know.. Random.

Went to watch Obsessed with my friends yesterday.. The movie I wanted to watch sooooo much!!

Haha! It was DAMN DAMN GOOD!!!

I can't wait to watch it again!!

Anyways.. I have not been sleeping properly for the past week. Everyday, I m hitting the bed only at 5 am. Hmm.

O wells, I feel so much better now. I have lesser things to focus on. Lol. My school, dance, work. That's about it.

No other extra nonsense.

Hahaha! Why was I so stupid not to think about this before.

I m super bombarded with loads of problems. I rather ramble on my blog or talk to my friends. Why the hell depend on someone who doesn't give me 2 hoots.

Alrighty, back to work!!

:)

Memories left

2009-07-12T01:26:00.002+08:00

I so happened to chance upon Vishnu's facebook.

Found pictures of him with Rshini at my house during the "Ennai Koncham Maatri" makeover show.

That's all left of her.

Memories.

Everyones found her adorable.

I just miss her so much.

So much.

Life hurts

2009-07-10T02:29:00.004+08:00

It's 2.29am.

I m trying to pull through my articles. I simply cant. I just want to sleep.

Sometimes, i just think about he shit i m putting myself through. Why the hell do I bother about other people? Why can't I just live my life JUST for myself??

Let's have an open talk.

I do not wish to stay in my house. Constant fights, arguments and tears regarding my bro' s divorce and my niece been taken to India.

I feel like stopping school. Too much pressure.

I feel like stopping dancing. Can't take the tiredness and pressure.

I want to end my relationship. Becoming pointless.

Sometimes, I feel I m being too fake to people.

Everyone confides their problems to me. I comfort them. Who do I turn to? I write my feelings in my blog and people condemn them.

Someone who is supposed to be listening and comforting me isn't. He hangs up the phone.

Everyone's own problem seems the most important for them. I just feel that I should be better off. Though I may seem surrounded, I still feel lonely.

Because, that's the truth.

I do not care about whoever whom is reading this post. This is my blog.

Both of my babies have been taken away from me. What more m i supposed to be looking forward to?

I guess this was what he meant by facing the music.

I have decided to be stubborn. Be hard inside. That's how i can survive in this mean world.

Sad sad sad

2009-07-09T11:25:00.002+08:00

We received news from India.

Rshini is supposedly very sick. She is not drinking good milk, not eating proper food, does not wear slippers and has blisters on her feet.

I swear if i I were to see that bloody village bitch, I will shoot her down right in the middle of her fucking head.

Call herself a mother. When my niece was in Singapore, she had food. A lot of healthy food, toys, clothes, books, cartoons to watch etc. We gave her everything. What my sister and me didn't get when we were young, we provided for her.

Every time I come across cartoons such as Fireman Sam, Barney, Pokoyo.. I get reminded of her. The times she will cry to watch these cartoons. Children down the streets remind me of her.

I went to have lunch with his family and relatives at Spice Sutra on Father's Day. He has a niece who looks very alike Rshini and is of the same age as her. She was sitting down in the front of the table and everyone were feeding her food, ice cream, drinks etc. The smile on her face was just impeccable. She was enjoying each and every attention everyone were giving her. Why is that my niece has to be so unfortunate. She deserves the same treatment. But, she is in some rural village in India, running around in torn clothes, without slippers and going to sleep without food. I had just received news that she unwell that time. I simply lost mood. He scolded me infront of his mum, sis and bro-in law because he thought that I was being rude to everyone by not talking.

I just can't stand the fact that that woman is receiving 11 000 ruppees everyone for maintainece fees and she is treating my baby like a begger's child.

Why is Singapore law so uncompassionate. Does it mean that all children has to be with their mum no matter what?? Even if the mother is poor and the place has no basic amentities??? That bloody village does not even have a clinic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cry every night.. in school.. outside.. whenever i see children happy. Why does she have to go through this because of her damn mother and father. If only God was a little bit more compassionate.

I find it so hard to keep my feelings inside of me. I try best to laugh it off, spend my time at dance practices and talking to my friends.

Well, if only any bugger would to come up to me and tell me that, "Oh! Singapore indian women cannot be trusted! I m going to get married to a woman from India," be prepared to get a tight slap from me.

Mj Memorial

2009-07-08T14:28:00.005+08:00

Yesterday they aired the Memorial of the Kip of Pop on CHannle 5 and E! entertainment. Those who had E! channel would have watched he whole coverage of the heart wrenching event.

It was indeed very heart aching to watch the very concert hall in which he practiced his last comeback show; "This is it" to be the venue for his last appearance from all of us and indeed, this was it.

Millions watched his memorial on TV and internet.

Stars such as Usher, Queen Latifah, Brooke Shields and many others gave a speech about the greatest pop icon ever. Some performed to show their last respects to him. He arrived in a golded casket embraced with dark red roses.

Many spoke about his talents, his determination and some about his humanatarian side. His love for children and the needy. His kind and caring heart that has reached out to many and touched them. Not only as an entertainer, Micheal has proved to be a step ahead.

To end of the memorial, the Jacksons family spoke. It was indeed very sad to watch his whole family break into tears. But, the most wrenching part would be when Paris Micheal Jackson came up to the microphone to say a few words about her dad.

"Ever since I was born, Daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine," the 11-year-old told the thousands of people gathered at Los Angeles' Staples Center to mourn the passing of her father. "I just want to say I love him so much." The emotion overcame her and she left the microphone to sob into her aunt Janet's Jacksons arms.

It was the last goodbye to the greatest pop icon.

RIP Micheal Jackson

Your fans will remember you for ever & ever & ever & ever & ever

At Staples Center

Queen Latifah

His golden casket

Missing Micheal

2009-07-07T01:10:00.002+08:00

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

All alone
Why, oh

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
So forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Then something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
And you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone

RIP MJ

Updates

2009-07-06T13:55:00.003+08:00

Hello.

My attachment is over! Hahaha! I was at Singapore Sports School doing Media Operations for the Asian Youth Games 09. O well. The real work starts now. I have got to write 5 articles and they have to be published for me to fulfil my attachment requirements. Apart from my report of course.

BUSY BUSY BUSY.

Anyway, I decided to upload some pictures taken some time back.

Show-off.

Aights. Back to work. :D

Pissed

2009-07-02T01:01:00.004+08:00

Ok listen up people.

I have not had such a tag in my blog before. Now i understand how horrible spammers can be. If you have such violent objections against me, please do approach me and let me know what i did to aggravate you. No point using anonymity and spamming my blog.

People.

I have absolute no time for this nonsense. I m just a normal average girl you see down the streets. I don't boast. I don't behave as if i own the street. Those who know me will understand.

Please do not pose such degrading words in my blog. I feel very hurt and down and I see them. I treat all my readers as friends and I post my feelings and what not to you guys. I share my life online with you people. How could this happen. If you in some way do not like me...

1st option: get lost from the page.
2nd option: read and then get lost.

I have removed my tagboard since. I do have your IP add. If you have the face to tell me what you wrote, then DO SO.

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JB JB JB

2009-06-30T11:25:00.016+08:00

Hello Hello Hello!!!

Last week Saturday, Sangeshtraz headed down to JB for a guest performance. I was very upset that we weren't able to shop. Unlike the previous trip when we got to shop like crazy. Haha. Well, annae promised a trip after Danz Arena... Soooo FINGERS CROSSED!!!!!!!

It was actually a huge dance competition in JB, Larkin. Murali annae together with Senthil and Razaq annae were the judges. But.. the holding room was..... hehehe.. :D

Alright.. back to class!!!

RIP MJ

2009-06-27T00:59:00.007+08:00

Hey Blog.

I was indeed taken aback with the shocking news of the passing away of Micheal Jackson- King of Pop.
I remember how I used to go GAGAGAGAGA over him and his songs. I used to collect huge posters, cut out his pictures from the newspaper and paste them into my journal, collect cassettes and even dance like him. Whenever there was news about him, I would be the first to run to the TV. I would even teach my brother to moonwalk. Hahaha.

MJ has always been our inspiration for the evolution of the music and dance industry. Till now, we see followers of Micheal Jackson. We see them dressed up as him and dance like him. He has indeed embedded into our hearts like no other.

MJ, I miss you. I love you. You will always be in my heart.
A true legend.

Micheal Jackson
(August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009

I have attached some of my favourite songs of his.

Smooth Criminal

Earth Song

Black or White
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1AlL0mw_Rew

Beat It
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZkGOiS75Lwk

Do watch them.
Thanks

WIll school close??

2009-06-25T11:44:00.003+08:00

Hello hello..

Well as you all know, Republic Polytechnic has been hit with 9 cases of H1N1 virus. The year 1s have been sent home. But, the year 2s & year 3s are left to be attacked. What the hell.

Anyways, AYG is starting soon. There were talks to postpone it. But I DOUBT. Singapore will never do such a thing.

We celebrated Murali Annae's birthday on Tuesday. It was a surprise. Lol. We made a collage and bought him a Samsung organizer phone. Haha. Go catch the video in my facebook.

Happy Birthday Annae! God Bless You!!

**Drag me to hell was AWESOME!!!!! Go catch it!!

Updates updates

2009-06-24T01:39:00.002+08:00

I seriously hope people will shut their mouth and let me live peacefully.

Video

2009-06-19T00:42:00.004+08:00

Hello hello!!!

A small shout out to the indian girls at woodlands mrt today. Thanks for your "very constructive" comments. I really appreciate them. :)

Anyways, i took a mini video of Munna & Vijay. LOL.

Shoots.. I have UT & FYP.

ARRGH.
NITEZ

Fig & Olive

2009-06-17T12:56:00.005+08:00

Harlow...

Haha.. I know I m so into blogging for the past few days. Daily updates of my life la.. Anyways, some people just can't seem to get the insider messages. I m so happy that you have finally realized that you are such a arrogant being. You ought to tone yourself down GIRL. Muahahaha!! Try telling those stuff to my face. LOL. I will send you flying to Andhra.

Vokayy vokayy.. Now, for food updates.

We went to Vivocity yesterday. I wanted to get my foundation from Make Up store. The price was like $44 bucks for a small box. I was willing to pay untill he had to drag me out of the shop. Humph. In the end i ended up buying from the franchise brand; Make Up Shop from SASA. Plus, eyebags refiner mask. I so need it la. I m begining to look like a Panda.

NOT IN THE SIZE BUT IN THE EYES.

Went to have our dinner at Fig & Olive. Food was ok la.. But i LOVED the mushroom soup.
Heee.

I wonder why.

I tried to pose like her. In the end, he is.

After that, i went to socialize with Durgz.. My old timer friend la... Muahaha. Since Pri 1. Woah.

Ok.. Update laterrr

Movie!!

2009-06-16T01:00:00.011+08:00

Hello Hello..

Before i post anything, here is Chakraz's Danz Arena performance..

Yesterday was simply the MAKAN day. Just after Danz Arena, i was satisfied that i have lost some weight, i have gained all of them back.

Seoul Garden

Not alone, but with Gayathri. Hahaha

Was super super super full. After that, we went to catch a movie. 'Ghosts of Girlfriends Past'.

It was super nice. But, it made me think a lot. Haha.

When we appreciate someone that someone doesn't. In turn, when someone appreciates us, we don't. That's life. That's love. It's so hard to find the right one. When you just think that the person you are with is just so perfect, there will be a tinge of imperfection within.

I want to watch this movie again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ouh. I pierced the top part of my ear again. LOL. so that makes 4 piercings on each ear. My mum gave me a wonderful option. To pierce my tongue. Shall I???

Obviosuly she was being sarcasstic. -_-.
But shall i??

Danz Arena

2009-06-15T01:15:00.008+08:00

Hey hey hey hey!!!

Hahaha..! It's 1.27am. Just came back home after some socializing with my good old friend from Fajar Sec; Durga. Haha. We caught up with loads of stuff.

Anyways, i had guest performance at Bukit Batok yesterday. Super tiring especially after Danz Arena on Saturday.

But first!!! Some pictures i took during our guest dance. :D

Monkey & Me.

Munna bro...
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OK!! Now for Danz Arena updates..

We were the 15th to perform. I tell you, I was dying to get on stage & finish it off. I was dead bored waiting. Pheww. Competition was pretty good. Well, we just did our best.

I was super nervous to talk to the hosts. LOL. Of course they tackled me with pretty obvious questions. Vishnu JUST HAD TO MENTION MY NAME. He had to mention the makeover show he did with me. *^*&^$Y&$Y!!!!!!

Well, just like what i said to everyone who was seated at Chong Pang CC, we need your support. True. We have failed once. But, reaching the peak lies in our hands. With you guys, ONLY with your support, we will go further.

Thanks to all who supported us. Especially to Syncronix. Thanks boys!! :)

Alright!!! I m off to Restaurant city. O SHOOTS! SCHOOL!!!!!!!! AAAARGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Nose ring

2009-06-13T01:07:00.004+08:00

Heyyyyyzzzzzzz..

Finally finished sequining my rotten pair of shoes. Getting ready for Danz Arena's first round; Danz Floor.

Hope to give my best.

He bought me a gold nose ring. Belated birthday gift.

*damn my eye bags.

Now for some random photos.

*retarded brother & me.

*the Kunjumani face*

All right. Off to bed.
Nighty night.

100th post

2009-06-10T02:34:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone..

This is my 100th post!! Hahaha..!

Anyway, i m super tired. My legs are aching. LIKE SERIOUS.

My throat is super painful. I can't even seem to swallow my saliva. Gosh.

**Too many pirablems in one baaady**

Hmm.. Recently i so into PINK. Someone tell me WHY. Give me a knock on my head. Muahahah.

O did i mention i went to Celeb last Saturday night. Well, i seriously prefer English clubs. Not that i m behaving like some top notch bitch, but i always noticed that most Indian clubs are small, non-friendly environment and super cramped. They don't have lockers. I couldn't even go to the dance floor for the fact that i had brought my bag along. Grr. The price was too ex too. -_-.

I m so waiting for August 8. I NEED A LONG BREAK!!!! After August 8, i have decided to apply for driving license. I need to break that darn road fear i have. It has been 5 damn years since my accident.

Hmm.

Let's wait and see.

Nitez Fwens..

Prabha Deva & Nayan !!!

2009-06-09T00:48:00.002+08:00

OMG

Is it true!! Is it true!!

Prabhu Deva & Nayanthara married?????????

What is the world coming to?????????

Christ.

Anyway, Danz Arena's first round, Dance floor is on coming Saturday 13th June. Please let me know if you guys need tixs.

Chaoz.

My Birthday Celebration together wif Pradhana Vizha

2009-06-02T08:03:00.027+08:00

Hey Blog..

Yeapp!!!
30th May was indeed a blast.
Pradhana VIzha 09 + My Birthday
Hahahaha..!!

I practically spent the whole day at Mediacorp preparing for Pradhana Vizha.. Hope you guys caught the performance. Hahaha.. We did the finale.

Celebrated my birthday with Sangeshtraz. Thank you very much ppl!!!
Special thanks to Murali Annae.. You are the best annae!!!

Gift from Murali Annae

My NEW Handphone!! From Mum & Sis..!!

These are the Pradhana Vizha pictures we took!!

Had a blast!!! Happy 20th Birthday to me!!! Muahahah!!
Chaoz!!

Bad day

2009-05-29T02:07:00.004+08:00

Hey blog

I was all set for schol yesterday. I stepped into class 15 minutes earlier, just to realize i forgot it was broadcast news class. It was to be held in the recording studio and i totally forgot about it.

I m supposed to be dressed formally and with covered shoes. Instead i was wearing a printed tee, tights and slippers. I GOT SO PISSED.

Left class and headed to bukit merah office. hahahaha. Met Gayu, Miss Kandhi and chatted. LOL. Went to Monfort junior school and sat in the class while Miss Kandhi took over the lesson. After that, we headed down to the Sheng Siong in the Verge at Tekka. We had to get a lot of stuff for childen regarding the class excusion organised by us. Phew...!! Guess who joined us at Tekka!! Hahahah! Jason annae!! LOL..!

After shopping, what else.... FOOD!! We ate at Banana Leaf Apolla!!! LOL!! Mysore Mutton, Pepper Chicken, Fish Sambal!! YUMMYYYYYY!!!!

After the eatting session we left tekka. Jason annae, Gayu and myself went down to Vivo. After window shopping, headed down to practice at Selegie. VAD A DAY.

It was super bad in the morning. Got scolded and all. Humph. It was not on purpose. Haiz. I m really panicking. RP is seriously pushing us to the max. Especially us, doing communication studies. Woah. Tomorrow must rush down to Mediacorp at 10am. For a show which is at 9pm and item at 10.50pm. SAVADI!!!

Anyway just to wrap up the whole day, i thought it was gonna end as usual. Haiz. Someone just had to make me cry in the end.

I just feel that he is moving away from me. I felt the pinch damn hard. Till i couldnt hold back my tears. Someone whom i really care about finds others better. Haiz. Many people have hurt me. Not you. Well like what Murali annae say, people change.

Nights people.
Tiring day tomorrow.

Naresh Iyer

2009-05-27T02:19:00.004+08:00

OMG

Did i mention that i m going to meet Naresh Iyer...

AUVVVV

At least if i were to get a autograph from him.. That will be my biggest birthday gift.. Muahahahahahaahah!!!

That's him..The guy whom sang " mayilliragae, munbae vaa.." CUTE rite..!! But he married larrhhh.. *(*^%$&^%&^*&^&^*&%&^&^%%#$#@

Karale

2009-05-26T01:45:00.006+08:00

Heyyyy

I m in LAU with this song.. HAHAHAH.. SO random.. I chanced upon it about a year ago. Got reminded of it again.. :D

The video is just so *indian* Hahahakz.. Had a good laugh after watching it..

*4 Days to go.....*

bye teen.. hello ty..

:D

Msn.

2009-05-24T00:38:00.003+08:00

Guys listen up.

This message goes out to whoever is involved.

Please do not randomly add me on msn and talk rubbish. I do not entertain losers. Please grow up. I do not wish to be getting any of this stuff anymore. There is a limit. I have my own life and own problems to bother. DO NOT & i repeat DO NOT ADD ON.

You wanna talk cock, talk cock to yourself.

Clear?

After a long time.

2009-05-22T11:07:00.007+08:00

Heyzz

Sitting in class, feeling really very bored. AND SICK.

Having my FYP and dance later.

O ya! Did i mention Sangeshtraz will be dancing for Pradhana Vizha 2009?? Maybe i have. Anyways, we are doing the finale item. *sobz* It's on 30th May. WHYYYYYY?? Can't I enjoy my birthday in peace for once... LOLZ. Well, it is not as if i m having some big celebration or anything. Nahh.

Well, i saw the set design for Mediacorp Tv theatre for Pradhana Vizha.. Looks grand. But i feel Vasantham Launch's one was grander.

Hmm...

Anyways, here are some pictures we took..

LOL

See the mouth.

My fav.

:D

old pictures

2009-05-20T09:47:00.007+08:00

Hey blog..

Feeling really down.. Yesterday, I came back after school. That was like eons ago ever since i did that. When i knocked on my door, nobody ran to the door and banged back.. Nobody stuck their face out and shouted "mathu athai"

Noone.

I decided to upload some really very old pictures of Rshini..

3 hrs old..

Haiz..
Tearing away..
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Anyway, here are some very old pictures i grabbed from friendster.
When i look back at these pictures, i simply laugh at myself..
LOL.

LOL

More of a vainpot eh...

Chaoz.

Dancer..Dreamer..**Mathana Subhas Balan**

My Tattoo

BTT done

Geez

Back

Time

Hols had started

sick

Vadivelu comedy

At the railway tracks

Upfront

People

Vizhigal

RIver Tandoor

Danz Arena Champions

1 More day to Danz Arena

G302

Red Day

FYP presentation

pics at heritage

Heritage Fest

bride bride

Ego

Heritage Fest

helllooo

Me

Memories left

Life hurts

Sad sad sad

Mj Memorial

Missing Micheal

Updates

Pissed

JB JB JB

RIP MJ

WIll school close??

Updates updates

Video

Fig & Olive

Movie!!

Danz Arena

Nose ring

100th post

Prabha Deva & Nayan !!!

My Birthday Celebration together wif Pradhana Vizha

Bad day

Naresh Iyer

Karale

Msn.

After a long time.

old pictures

Dancer..Dreamer..Mathana Subhas Balan